After several weeks of stressing out, and trying to soothe a crying baby, we may now know why Kamden has been so upset. We went to the doctor for his two month check-up today, and it turns out our little guy is not getting anywhere near enough to eat from Mommy(Me). For some reason, the doctor says I’m not producing enough milk, because Kam isn’t gaining enough weight. They like to see babies gain about an ounce a day at this age. At Kam’s one month appointment he weighted 8 pounds 10 ounces. Today the little guy was only 9 pounds 4 ounces. He should have gained two pounds, and he’s not even close to that. So, despite my best efforts and even though I don’t want to, we are going to supplement him with formula. It is a relief to know for sure though, that he’s not just “fussy” that there is an actual problem. But it’s very heartbreaking for me as a mom, to feel like I can’t provide what my baby needs. When the doctor told me, I cried. I also feel guilty, because he’s has been hungry, not just grumpy! I know I’ll get used to it, and I’m going to keep feeding him breast milk and pumping it with hopes that I’ll eventually produce enough for him. I’d like to hear if others have experienced something similar? And did you feel like a total failure like I do?
Here are some new pictures, still can’t capture his smile, but I’ll keep trying!